Tuesday, August 31, 2010

New Beginnings

The first day of our new life came on a very bittersweet note.  Dreams really do come true, but not always in the way we think they will.
I've always known that these new beginnings revolved somehow around my Mom, and in the beginning I thought it had to do with making sure she was safe and tucked in to an assisted living environment.  But the closer we got to the time to leave, it became clear to me that I couldn't leave her, even in that safety net.

It never crossed my mind that she would leave this earth so soon.  That's a story for another day.  What is so fascinating for me today, is the fact that one year ago to this very day she moved in to the independent living apartment in AZ.  I can't believe that it has only been a year, but even more astonished that the very day we begin our new adventure is exactly one year since we moved her. 

She travels with me in cremated form at this point today, until I figure out the place that would most speak to her. 

I love you Mom.  I miss you already...


  1. I have never been able to find words which are adequate in circumstances like yours are now. Know, though, that my thoughts are with you.

    I had been wondering where you were and what was happening as you hadn't blogged for so long. I'm very pleased to see you back in Blogland.

  2. ♥ My heart is thumping. When I saw the picture, it dropped and I had to pick it back up. WOW. WOW.

    I am so glad that you are back and I love this place, it's refreshing and the photo is so right.

    My mom's ashes still remain in my father's living room. He won't let her go until the day that his body becomes ashes also.

    I want to give you a BIG {{HUG}}, sit with you in the quiet of thought and rest together. Oh, maybe some day you'll travel way up north into our little state. I have a BIG driveway...at least three bus sizes :)

    Love you.

  3. Shabbygirl...thank you so much for letting me know where you are with your new blog and new life. I really look forward to the new chronicles.

    When I saw "In Memory..." my heart sank. I am so sorry. From following you...I know that you spent so much time with your mom during that last year and you can feel a loss but also a satisfaction knowing that you had the time with your mom before she left for her final...wonderful...rest. We are here for you and your family to support you all in this time of grief and sorrow. We will be praying for you and your family.


  4. Shabbygirl...just one more thing...the security word was "letgo".